Up-to-date Finally

This week has presented another challenge. Monday, I got the parking lot at the train station and was on the edge of tears. Since I didn't know if I could make it through the day like that (I doubt I could have), I called my boss and headed back home. This really threw me off because the weekend was so great and work had gone pretty well last week. Oh the joys of depression. You don't know how you're going to feel from day to day.

Tuesday I still didn't feel all that great, but made myself go in because I had a meeting in the morning at 8:00. I made it through the meeting ok, fortunately. There was some important stuff that affects how I do my job (and everyone else in the department). After that, it was back down and so I headed home.

At this point I called my therapist to see what she thought about time off from work. She said due to the contract she has with my work/insurance, I would have to have my doctor write the note for time off. So I call my doctor and he is on vacation for the next week. The nurse I talked to didn't know what kind of paperwork I needed so she said she would get back to me. Finally, I called the advisor at work and a few hours later he helped clarify how the process works. I called my therapist back and let her know what I learned. Finally, she wrote the note. Funny thing is I don't need a note. Once she gave the ok, I had to make a call to the company that manages our disability program at work. Then they take care of any paperwork that needs to be done.

So after all was said and done, I picked up the letter from my therapist Tuesday night and am now on leave/disability until Monday, September 21. Again, this is not something I have gone through before, so it's a weird feeling being home everyday. However, it is better than being at work where I constantly had a hard time concentrating on my work and was in and out of the office for the past several weeks. Another reason my therapist was in favor of time off, was so the new dosage of my medication (Lexapro, 20 mg) could take effect. We'll see how that goes and hopefully when the 21st rolls around, I'll be back at work into a normal routine again. If there is a silver lining to all of this, I'll be able to take the girls to their first days of school next week. (I already had Courtney's first day as a vacation day, but wasn't planning on going to Sky's first day.)