Long Week

This past week was the roughest I've had in a while. I only worked a couple of hours Thursday morning and was out the rest of the week. As noted in my previous entry, it started coming on strong Sunday night and carried over into Monday. Tuesday was a little better, but when Wednesday rolled around I still didn't feel like going into work and got fairly angry about it. This was probably the closest I have ever been to yelling at Traci. Fortunately, I was able to control myself enough to not yell at her. I was also able to keep myself from yelling at Courtney earlier int he week and those are the positives I'm taking from the work week.

Yesterday, I got out and did some yardwork trimming the hedges and bushes from the neighbor's yard that always grow over the fence onto our side and irritate us somewhat. I had already planned to do this before I went to my therapist appointment Thursday night, but we again talked about how physical activity can help eliminate some of the negative feelings I've been having, not to mention that Traci has told me this numerous times. For some reason, it really registered this time.

Once I finished the work, I really did feel better. It was encouraging and made me realize that maybe my sulking around in self-pity or self-beating-up isn't the best thing for me. Fortunately, there is plenty more yardwork to do and much more trimming of bushes and shrubs to do. Hopefully I can tackle that next Friday before we host our Sunday school class Halloween party (Friday night).

We've been to one Harvest Festival so far today, which I think also helps as I focus on the kids' enjoyment there. Also, having a little money to spend for the games and lunch (and how inexpensive things are at these festivals) helps me not get down too. I'm hoping the rest of this weekend also goes well, although I'm not looking forward to Sunday's church service at Biola where we are supposed to make commitments for the building project underway. We don't have much to give, but will pledge to do about $20 per month. We're hoping we can do more than that down the road, but feel this may be reasonable to commit to right now.

And now, off to harvest festival #2!