Home Again

This not feeling like I can handle work stuff is getting old. I woke up this morning still feeling the effects of a down night last night and just didn't want to deal with anything this morning. So much so that I didn't kiss and say goodbye to Traci. I just had breakfast, got dressed and left. I went to the train station at Norwalk figuring I could park and hang out in the car until Traci had left for Disneyland/DCA with friends. Once I confirmed she was on her way, I came back home. I didn't want to face her again and have to deal with the questions as to why I couldn't make it in to work. Like I said, I didn't want to deal with anything.

So where did the down night come from? Despite a bad Dodger loss (11-0), that wasn't the cause. I've seen them lose like that before and come right back the next day. It feels like it was frustration from dealing with Courtney and her attitude yesterday. It took a lot to not lose it and not yell at her yesterday, but I managed to control myself and avoid doing that. Hey, I'll take one positive.

Then on top of that, my mother-in-law comes over to Skype with her Colorado grandkids (more annoyances with why she has to use our Skype/computer, but that's a different issue), our nieces...the nephew and my brother-in-law were "quarantined" because they were sick (another annoyance), and there was just too much happiness for me to handle. So I retreated to the bedroom to watch the rest of the Dodger game.

So, here I am at home with nobody knowing I'm here. However, I'm sure I'll have to deal with the mother-in-law when she gets home since she picking the kids up from school today. I'm hoping I'm napping by then, if I can sleep. I don't want to take the prescription sleeping pills I've been given because I figure that will really screw up my sleep pattern for tonight. Oh, and I need to call the psychiatrist because my therapist said I should if I stayed home from work again. I have no idea why, but I'll do it. Let's just hope this day, and week, get better.